I Won The Pageant

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In loving memory of Ann Twombly Leland Cross

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released February 24, 2017

Lex Noens: Vocals, guitar, bass
Ty Gale: Vocals, keys, misc. percussion
Maddie Morley: Drums

Songs written by Lex Noens
Mixed & recorded by Andy Halvorson
Mastered by Aaron Hodgson

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Our families, friends, roommates, and dogs
Joe Horton
Amber Patterson
Mark Calaway

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Scrappy gay cripplepunk

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Track Name: Nobody's Listening
I starve myself to prove I've got only weight to lose
And I know nobody's listening when I pray to Mother Goose

Blood is sweeter when your tongue is numb
Something changed, now I don't cry too much
Some might say that I don't cry enough
I just quiver and blush

Monroe won't love again once I shoot her boyfriend dead
But I know nobody's listening ‘cause my crimes have been confessed

Nothing's sweeter than a newborn fawn
With lashes darker than before the dawn
I tore my lashes out and now they're gone
And Bambi's brain's on my lawn

I've been trying to flag you down and feed your senses
Senseless fears suit my skin
I've been bending myself backwards to get you off
My swollen hips feel stiff
And I'm asking you

Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want

On nights I'm left alone I take my business to the road
But I know nobody's listening 'cause their tire's on my throat

That mistake of yours could be so sweet
I turned red when they were indulging me
Maybe indulge isn't the word I mean
I think they're trying to speak
And they're asking me

Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want to be sung to?
Don't you want me to sing to you?
Track Name: Everything's Gone Wrong
Broke up with the love of my life last night, he told me to drop dead
Over-ate all in sight, now I can’t feed my head
Lucid dreamt I was trying my best to fall asleep
Got a shoplifted bible from the company I keep

But Jesus is not my friend
But Jesus could be my friend, ‘cause I’m friendly

Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh
Everything’s gone wrong
Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I
Haven’t felt this good in so long

I don’t want to eat out a Catholic saint, rail Mary to stay young
Swap my teeth with a stray just to castrate my tongue
Every day is an adventure to find where luck runs dry
Puts a smile on my face to know that’s probably how I’ll die

But I know I’m not depressed
Depression is what you get when you’re trying

Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh
Everything’s gone wrong
Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I
Haven’t felt this good in so long

That’s a part of growing up, everybody knows your name
Even dealers of the drug that you never planned to take
But it couldn’t hurt to try, if it doesn’t go your way
Know as soon as you come down, everyone will know your name
Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name
Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name
Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name
Tell me how you know my name, everybody knows that

Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh
Everything’s gone wrong
Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I
Haven’t felt this good in so long
Haven’t felt this good in so long
Track Name: Anjali
Met this girl last night
Something like a dream
She emerged from a crowd of people, alright
Like Aphrodite rose from the sea
Boys like girls named Anjali
And so do I

She had short dark hair
And olive skin
She was paper thin so I tried
To caress her, then she caved in
This is Anjali, yeah, and she likes men
Thought I'd make her mine

A-N-J-A-L-I, what's her name?
A-N-J-A-L-I, something strange
A-N-J-A-L-I, glad you came
A-N-J-A-L-I, what's your name?

We spoke for hours
About the lovebird's song
Then her lovebird came along
How am I ever meant to compete
With a boy so rare he's never seen
'Cept by her side

We bid adieu
Her boyfriend was her ride
Then when he wasn't looking, alright
Anjali snuck me a kiss goodnight
Was it something real or was it just goodbye?
That girl's divine

A-N-J-A-L-I, what's her name?
A-N-J-A-L-I, something strange
A-N-J-A-L-I, glad you came
A-N-J-A-L-I, what's your name?
What’s your name?
What’s your name?
What’s your name?
What’s your name?
Track Name: You're Not A Kid Anymore, You Deliver My Mail
You’re not a kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Kid anymore

You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Your face is pale, your drugs are laced, your shoes have been
Taken from you by your mother’s ex-boyfriend
He still lives here, he still sleeps with her, they’re just
Not exactly exclusive
Woah oh, woah oh oh
Woah oh, woah oh oh

You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Your lips are chapped, you fight back tears
‘Cause even the slightest discomfort makes you feel like you’re dying
I hear pills only work if you take them the same time each day
You deliver my mail

Everyone seems so scared to be in the same room as you are
They don’t know what they’ll say to upset you, ‘cause anything can upset you
Maybe it’s time to invest in a new mental illness
‘Cause this one don’t flatter you
But God knows you’re not interesting enough to go without one

You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Woah oh, woah oh oh
Woah oh, woah oh oh

You’re not a kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Kid anymore
You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail
Kid anymore
You deliver my mail
Track Name: Emerald City
The grass is brown
And the sky looks pink
And I'm racking my little brain
For an ounce of rain
But it don't fall down
It don't shoot up
I keep it all inside my love
And someday soon the dam will break
And I will wash you away

The sky bleeds red
When the sun goes home for the night
And I'm racking up all the points
So I can win a prize
But I don't need toys, I don't need cash
I just want enough so you'll want me back
And someday soon my luck will fade
The ruby slippers decay

The facts will cease to matter once the movie fades to black
And your compliments mean nothing to a swollen, crippled calf
I've lost in love so many times, what does one more failure do?
But I see so many things in you and none of them are cruel

I try to sleep, your absence stings me, I can't sleep
I'd like to be so far out west I never met me
This can't be real, you can be so sweet I feel bad
I'm tender like a cinder block, you must know that

But the grass is brown
And the sky looks pink
And the sun went home
Now we're all alone
And I hope you still like me when I'm sad
And I hope you still like me when your grass is green
Your grass is green, your grass is green
Your grass is green, your grass is green
Your grass is green, your grass is green
Your grass is green, your grass is green
Track Name: Ur The Right 1
My future was a thing of the past
When I told a stupid joke and I heard you laugh
For the first time, for the first time
You’re the right one, you're the right one

You catcall beautiful men
On your way into town and you gave me a shout
Said I looked good, said I looked good
I’m the right one, I'm the right one

Summer was wasting away
We threw in some feeling to fatten it up
Numbers were weak out the gate
I think that you're special and that is enough

I'm worried that I might scare you off
I heard you're into artists but I mostly write pop
I like you too much, I like you too much
Can I please say you're the right one?

Summer was wasting away
We threw in some feeling to fatten it up
Numbers were weak out the gate
I think that you're special and that is enough

The second I realized you love me I forgot what it's like to feel cold
I want you to trust me when I say nobody can touch you in my heart
Nobody can touch you in my heart, nobody can touch you in my heart
I want you to trust me when I say nobody can touch you in my heart
I think that you might be the right one, it’s early but it could be too true
I think that you might be the right one, I hope that you think I'm the right one
Um. Um. Um. Um.

Summer was wasting away
Numbers were weak out the gate
I will conquer the fears that you face
'Cause I know you're the right one
And I am your right one
Oh-oh-oh, oh oh oh oh, oh-oh-oh, oh oh
Oh-oh-oh, oh oh oh oh, oh-oh-oh, oh oh
Track Name: Chicken
I've been limping around in an ugly habit I haven't washed in a month, and I’m
Praying to el diablo hell won't be as bad as my breath was
On the night that I died, on the night that I died (night that I died)
I showed up to the wrong place, must have been high the whole time (high the whole time)

November is invited to misrepresent my pain
I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain
Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know

My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow
I've been asking around 'bout the fox who was staring me down
On the couch, holding sex in her hand
I didn't realize it was a mirror, I fell in love with a shatter of glass
On the night that I died, on the night that I died (night that I died)
I showed up to the wrong place, must have been high the whole time (high the whole time)

November is invited to misrepresent my pain
I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain
Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know
My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow

On the night that I died, I always chicken out
I want to be a martyr but it doesn't matter now
When it comes to the crunch, my future reads my mind
I want to say it doesn't happen but it happens all the time
On the night that I died, I always chicken out
I want to be a memory that doesn’t matter now
When it comes to the crunch, my future reads my mind
I want to say it doesn't happen but it happens all the time

November is invited to misrepresent my pain
I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain
Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know
My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow
Track Name: Come Out!!!
I found a girl who has what I don’t have
She walks with balance and grace
I forgot her name
She was abducted from the farthest country
I can think of
Once I feel sober, I’ll fly straight

Everybody knows the drill but you
Once I enter a room, all the lights go out
You were into kinkier shit, I assumed
Once the nuclear blasts hit, I’ll come out
To you, come out to you

My sergeant spun a story otherwise despised
General Mills was soaked in milk and natural dyes
But where were mine?

Everybody knows the drill but you
Once I enter a room, all the lights go out
You were into kinkier shit I assumed
Once the nuclear blasts hit, I’ll come out
To you, come out to you

And everybody here
Is a close friend of the president
Your stench fucked up the air
Got some gum stuck in your hair
I would like to
Extend invitation
To my crystal ball of sapphic fun
STI’s for everyone

And how aren’t the Disney princes gay?
I’ll come out when I am ironed straight
Track Name: Hero Leander
Caught in between
The south and the east
And I have lost my way

I won the pageant
I broke all the hearts
Now I would like to say

My hero can’t forget me
My hero swims within me

Canvases drip
When feelings are left
Uncovered, unspoken for

I caught a glimpse
Of truth in your art
Now you are dead and I know

Your hero can’t forget you
Your hero died before you

I want to vomit, I want to dissolve
I want to, I want to follow you
My hero tore my sutures
Made me a freak of nature

I just started healing, and that’s when you left me
I want to, I want to follow you
Grandmotherless creature, a Disney film feature
A sad baby rabbit with mercury tears

I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander
And I am begged to stay
I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander
And love is just a game
I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander
And I have lost my way
Track Name: I Won The Pageant
I won the pageant but I sank the ship
I bought the sun only to swallow it
I amputated off my right hand man
I'm all he had, I hope he understands
Hunger taught me every trick I know
Now my gut is good as gold

Nobody noticed how much the glitter meant to me
Nobody noticed ’til I set all the greyhounds free

So chain me to the gate, whip me into shape
I’m dying for a win that's not in
The circuit I was born for, running from a kept score
Jury’s gonna know my name in the worst way
I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant

I won the pageant ‘cause I blew the judge
I ate my words then they gave me the runs
I was a siren with imperfect pitch
Wore a tuxedo with a tailored fit
Starving bodies racing for a bite
I’ve got something you can’t pair with wine

Nobody noticed how much the glitter meant to me
Nobody noticed ’til I set all the greyhounds free

So chain me to the gate, whip me into shape
I’m desperate for a win that's not in
The circuit I was born for, running from a kept score
Jury’s gonna know my name in the worst way
I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant

They said I had a face for radio but sold me some lashes for extra luck
I’m moving backwards towards the future and I’m terrified to look
I’m never gonna age with grace or die a hero or rot in Hell, so I
Can see myself in all the starlets we’ve evicted from our minds

I’ve all but crashed the plane since I won
I’ve all but fled the stage since I won
I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant