I Won The Pageant

by 4th Curtis

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1.
I starve myself to prove I've got only weight to lose And I know nobody's listening when I pray to Mother Goose Blood is sweeter when your tongue is numb Something changed, now I don't cry too much Some might say that I don't cry enough I just quiver and blush Monroe won't love again once I shoot her boyfriend dead But I know nobody's listening ‘cause my crimes have been confessed Nothing's sweeter than a newborn fawn With lashes darker than before the dawn I tore my lashes out and now they're gone And Bambi's brain's on my lawn I've been trying to flag you down and feed your senses Senseless fears suit my skin I've been bending myself backwards to get you off My swollen hips feel stiff And I'm asking you Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want On nights I'm left alone I take my business to the road But I know nobody's listening 'cause their tire's on my throat That mistake of yours could be so sweet I turned red when they were indulging me Maybe indulge isn't the word I mean I think they're trying to speak And they're asking me Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want to be sung to? Don't you want me to sing to you?
2.
Broke up with the love of my life last night, he told me to drop dead Over-ate all in sight, now I can’t feed my head Lucid dreamt I was trying my best to fall asleep Got a shoplifted bible from the company I keep But Jesus is not my friend But Jesus could be my friend, ‘cause I’m friendly Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh Everything’s gone wrong Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I Haven’t felt this good in so long I don’t want to eat out a Catholic saint, rail Mary to stay young Swap my teeth with a stray just to castrate my tongue Every day is an adventure to find where luck runs dry Puts a smile on my face to know that’s probably how I’ll die But I know I’m not depressed Depression is what you get when you’re trying Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh Everything’s gone wrong Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I Haven’t felt this good in so long That’s a part of growing up, everybody knows your name Even dealers of the drug that you never planned to take But it couldn’t hurt to try, if it doesn’t go your way Know as soon as you come down, everyone will know your name Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name Everybody knows my name, everybody knows my name Tell me how you know my name, everybody knows that Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh Everything’s gone wrong Woah-oh-oh, woah-oh, but I Haven’t felt this good in so long Haven’t felt this good in so long
3.
Anjali 03:26
Met this girl last night Something like a dream She emerged from a crowd of people, alright Like Aphrodite rose from the sea Boys like girls named Anjali And so do I She had short dark hair And olive skin She was paper thin so I tried To caress her, then she caved in This is Anjali, yeah, and she likes men Thought I'd make her mine A-N-J-A-L-I, what's her name? A-N-J-A-L-I, something strange A-N-J-A-L-I, glad you came A-N-J-A-L-I, what's your name? We spoke for hours About the lovebird's song Then her lovebird came along How am I ever meant to compete With a boy so rare he's never seen 'Cept by her side We bid adieu Her boyfriend was her ride Then when he wasn't looking, alright Anjali snuck me a kiss goodnight Was it something real or was it just goodbye? That girl's divine A-N-J-A-L-I, what's her name? A-N-J-A-L-I, something strange A-N-J-A-L-I, glad you came A-N-J-A-L-I, what's your name? What’s your name? What’s your name? What’s your name? What’s your name?
4.
You’re not a kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Your face is pale, your drugs are laced, your shoes have been Taken from you by your mother’s ex-boyfriend He still lives here, he still sleeps with her, they’re just Not exactly exclusive Woah oh, woah oh oh Woah oh, woah oh oh You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Your lips are chapped, you fight back tears ‘Cause even the slightest discomfort makes you feel like you’re dying I hear pills only work if you take them the same time each day You deliver my mail Everyone seems so scared to be in the same room as you are They don’t know what they’ll say to upset you, ‘cause anything can upset you Maybe it’s time to invest in a new mental illness ‘Cause this one don’t flatter you But God knows you’re not interesting enough to go without one You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Woah oh, woah oh oh Woah oh, woah oh oh You’re not a kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Kid anymore You’re not a kid anymore, you deliver my mail Kid anymore You deliver my mail
5.
Emerald City 03:59
The grass is brown And the sky looks pink And I'm racking my little brain For an ounce of rain But it don't fall down It don't shoot up I keep it all inside my love And someday soon the dam will break And I will wash you away The sky bleeds red When the sun goes home for the night And I'm racking up all the points So I can win a prize But I don't need toys, I don't need cash I just want enough so you'll want me back And someday soon my luck will fade The ruby slippers decay The facts will cease to matter once the movie fades to black And your compliments mean nothing to a swollen, crippled calf I've lost in love so many times, what does one more failure do? But I see so many things in you and none of them are cruel I try to sleep, your absence stings me, I can't sleep I'd like to be so far out west I never met me This can't be real, you can be so sweet I feel bad I'm tender like a cinder block, you must know that But the grass is brown And the sky looks pink And the sun went home Now we're all alone And I hope you still like me when I'm sad And I hope you still like me when your grass is green Your grass is green, your grass is green Your grass is green, your grass is green Your grass is green, your grass is green Your grass is green, your grass is green
6.
My future was a thing of the past When I told a stupid joke and I heard you laugh For the first time, for the first time You’re the right one, you're the right one You catcall beautiful men On your way into town and you gave me a shout Said I looked good, said I looked good I’m the right one, I'm the right one Summer was wasting away We threw in some feeling to fatten it up Numbers were weak out the gate I think that you're special and that is enough I'm worried that I might scare you off I heard you're into artists but I mostly write pop I like you too much, I like you too much Can I please say you're the right one? Summer was wasting away We threw in some feeling to fatten it up Numbers were weak out the gate I think that you're special and that is enough The second I realized you love me I forgot what it's like to feel cold I want you to trust me when I say nobody can touch you in my heart Nobody can touch you in my heart, nobody can touch you in my heart I want you to trust me when I say nobody can touch you in my heart I think that you might be the right one, it’s early but it could be too true I think that you might be the right one, I hope that you think I'm the right one Um. Um. Um. Um. Summer was wasting away Numbers were weak out the gate I will conquer the fears that you face 'Cause I know you're the right one And I am your right one Oh-oh-oh, oh oh oh oh, oh-oh-oh, oh oh Oh-oh-oh, oh oh oh oh, oh-oh-oh, oh oh
7.
Chicken 04:32
I've been limping around in an ugly habit I haven't washed in a month, and I’m Praying to el diablo hell won't be as bad as my breath was On the night that I died, on the night that I died (night that I died) I showed up to the wrong place, must have been high the whole time (high the whole time) November is invited to misrepresent my pain I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow I've been asking around 'bout the fox who was staring me down On the couch, holding sex in her hand I didn't realize it was a mirror, I fell in love with a shatter of glass On the night that I died, on the night that I died (night that I died) I showed up to the wrong place, must have been high the whole time (high the whole time) November is invited to misrepresent my pain I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow On the night that I died, I always chicken out I want to be a martyr but it doesn't matter now When it comes to the crunch, my future reads my mind I want to say it doesn't happen but it happens all the time On the night that I died, I always chicken out I want to be a memory that doesn’t matter now When it comes to the crunch, my future reads my mind I want to say it doesn't happen but it happens all the time November is invited to misrepresent my pain I'm going crazy and the last one who will notice is my brain Next February seems so far away, I need the world to know My birthday taunts me like an evil child pissing in the snow
8.
Come Out!!! 03:33
I found a girl who has what I don’t have She walks with balance and grace I forgot her name She was abducted from the farthest country I can think of Once I feel sober, I’ll fly straight Everybody knows the drill but you Once I enter a room, all the lights go out You were into kinkier shit, I assumed Once the nuclear blasts hit, I’ll come out To you, come out to you My sergeant spun a story otherwise despised General Mills was soaked in milk and natural dyes But where were mine? Everybody knows the drill but you Once I enter a room, all the lights go out You were into kinkier shit I assumed Once the nuclear blasts hit, I’ll come out To you, come out to you And everybody here Is a close friend of the president Your stench fucked up the air Got some gum stuck in your hair I would like to Extend invitation To my crystal ball of sapphic fun STI’s for everyone And how aren’t the Disney princes gay? I’ll come out when I am ironed straight
9.
Hero Leander 04:01
Caught in between The south and the east And I have lost my way I won the pageant I broke all the hearts Now I would like to say My hero can’t forget me My hero swims within me Canvases drip When feelings are left Uncovered, unspoken for I caught a glimpse Of truth in your art Now you are dead and I know Your hero can’t forget you Your hero died before you I want to vomit, I want to dissolve I want to, I want to follow you My hero tore my sutures Made me a freak of nature I just started healing, and that’s when you left me I want to, I want to follow you Grandmotherless creature, a Disney film feature A sad baby rabbit with mercury tears I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander And I am begged to stay I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander And love is just a game I’m treading through slander for Hero Leander And I have lost my way
10.
I won the pageant but I sank the ship I bought the sun only to swallow it I amputated off my right hand man I'm all he had, I hope he understands Hunger taught me every trick I know Now my gut is good as gold Nobody noticed how much the glitter meant to me Nobody noticed ’til I set all the greyhounds free So chain me to the gate, whip me into shape I’m dying for a win that's not in The circuit I was born for, running from a kept score Jury’s gonna know my name in the worst way I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant I won the pageant ‘cause I blew the judge I ate my words then they gave me the runs I was a siren with imperfect pitch Wore a tuxedo with a tailored fit Starving bodies racing for a bite I’ve got something you can’t pair with wine Nobody noticed how much the glitter meant to me Nobody noticed ’til I set all the greyhounds free So chain me to the gate, whip me into shape I’m desperate for a win that's not in The circuit I was born for, running from a kept score Jury’s gonna know my name in the worst way I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant They said I had a face for radio but sold me some lashes for extra luck I’m moving backwards towards the future and I’m terrified to look I’m never gonna age with grace or die a hero or rot in Hell, so I Can see myself in all the starlets we’ve evicted from our minds I’ve all but crashed the plane since I won I’ve all but fled the stage since I won I’ve all but lost the game since I won the pageant

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In loving memory of Ann Twombly Leland Cross

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released February 24, 2017

Lex Noens: Vocals, guitar, bass
Ty Gale: Vocals, keys, misc. percussion
Maddie Curtis: Drums

Songs written by Lex Noens
Mixed & recorded by Andy Halvorson
Mastered by Aaron Hodgson

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Our families, friends, roommates, and dogs
Joe Horton
Amber Patterson
Mark Calaway

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